10/16/2009

Understanding Cold Hands & Warm Hearts

One of the biggest issues with people are their emotions. Either too much or not enough, emotions seem to provide the necessary drive to make it through the daily stresses of life. What emotions do you feel at present? And when you first awoke today? How are they different and why?

“Cold hands, warm heart.”

For one who may be cold on the outside may surely be warm on the inside.


It was 3:30 in the morning when the alarm on my phone sounded, a little ditty resembling an electric piano began playing. I desperately struggled to dismiss the alarm, but it was too late-my baby had woke up next to me. We kissed and exchanged those three little words in quiet whispers. I felt at peace.

"Cold hands mean a warm heart," she said, taking my hand into hers. Several weeks earlier we sat on the couch, looking one another in the eyes as if trying to peer into the depths of our very souls. She folded one leg underneath her, my legs outstretched in front of me as if I were buckled in an automobile. "What? Oh, yeah," I said, a little off guard.

The significance of that phrase never left my thoughts and here I was again, nearly 3:30 AM and the temperature having dropped rapidly, curious whose hands were cold despite the complete and utter warmth we enjoyed.

Chill bumps began to surface among our entire bodies despite the closeness we endured. Every hair on our arms standing on end, gleaming in the pale moonlight. The warmth began to change. It began to seep into the very essence of our souls -- we were one in our hearts and minds, if only for a moment, if only forevermore.

9/08/2009

Not-So-Happy Birthday to Me


Still celebrating birthdays? Whether young or old, birthdays are special--a celebration of the day you were brought into the world. Still, as we get older do we celebrate less the gift of life?

This is something I'm currently struggling with. Today at 11:52 I turn 25 years old. Wow-big whoop, huh? Do you remember what your 25th was like? What emotions do you recall coming to surface?

“It's a little sad.”

25, single, with no house to call my own. Pretty decent financially without major rent, etc. from living in the city, but how can I get my life to move fast-forward without losing precious time?

It's tough, and I have to think to myself, "Can I be happy with nothing to my name except a family?" And then I have to ask, "Would it be enough for 'her'?"

9/04/2009

Coincidence? I don't believe in coincidence.


Ever exclaimed, "What a coincidence!" or heard that sissy version, "What a co-inky-dink!" and became speechless? I have.

Whether you were dreaming of Chinese food only to find a voicemail from your spouse asking what kind of take-out you would like for supper or your birth date shows up as a customer's order number, we have all experienced them at one point or another in our lives. Those completely unrelated events which come together at the same time. Coincidences.
“I don't believe in coincidence.”
Cymatics is the study of sound and vibration in visual form. A pinch of salt, for example, on a surface affected by various audible frequencies can be manipulated to form patterns. These patterns represent an emerging trend of expression and have become an art form over the last decade.

Alva Noto is a musician who practices the use of cymatics as an artistic medium. Noto creates music through the use of electronic transmissions--a fax modem or telephonic beeps and clicks, etc. He uses mathematical logic to add rhythm & blues or hip-hop grooves to his music. Think of it as the industrial metal of the Euro electronica outfit, perfectly choreographed. Quoting Noto:
“It is such a complex matter we live within, it is impossible to track logic and decision making really, so therefore each choice can actually only be seen as coincidence.”
I take this to mean that the patterns in life we cannot explain, we label as "coincidence." Quite simply because we have no other explanation. I could go all religious, and I will, and state that God works in wondrous ways. I could also say I am a victim of comic culture, stealing the lines from Batman (loosely quoted): I don't believe in coincidence.

Do you?

8/29/2009

Top Five Recommendations for a Blackberry


As a relative newcomer to smartphones I took it upon myself to start digging. The first step was obviously to find a phone that both worked in my area and worked for my wants and needs. Luckily I found that in the Blackberry Curve 8330, though any similar Blackberry will work I felt I needed the full-size keyboard along with a camera and video recorder. Blackberries really are as easy to use as most say.

  1. LCD Screen Guard
    Having a protective layer of film over the screen is essential to keeping the display scuff-free. There are different types of screen guards which offer mirror reflections or blur the screen for privacy from nearby busy-bodies trying to see what you're up to. A great investment to ensure the life of your Blackberry (even though replacement screens can be found on eBay for $5).

  2. Holster/Carrying Case
    Unless you really like the pouch that probably came with your Blackberry, having a better case or holster for your belt is a big plus. However, not just any case is worth buying--make sure to get one that puts the unit in Sleep mode to conserve battery life!

  3. Memory Card
    Having additional storage is a must-have for anyone wishing to use their handset to the fullest. A cheap, four gigabyte chip could provide endless photos and decent video recording. They can be gotten at a local retail store for $25 or more--but on eBay for half that price. Shop around and save some major cash for this basic upgrade.

  4. Car Charger w/ IC Chip
    While many people now use a Blackberry for personal use, and are not far from a charging outlet for long, I recommend a car charger because browsing websites and other activities can really use up the battery. An "IC" chip will prevent overcharging of the battery.

  5. Extended Battery
    Giving yourself a second battery is a great idea, but having one that is even better than stock is a plus. Check eBay, cautiously, and enjoy a cheap, yet functional replacement allowing you to surf YouTube even longer.

8/25/2009

He said he wants a Pepsi!

Click for the full imageNot sure why this was never posted (February 2006). From memory:
  • 3x Days with a new car
  • 2x Dysfunctional airbags
  • 2x Broken vertebrae
  • 1x Broken clavicle
  • 1x Ruptured adrenal gland
  • 1x Severed ear
  • 1x Major laceration (hand)
  • 1x Concussion (w/ PTSD)
  • 1x Sharp head trauma
  • 1x Blunt head trauma
. . .and an EMT on a helicopter shouting, “He said he wants a Pepsi!”

True story—priceless.

8/23/2009

How I Met a Nice Lady at DMV (and renewed my license)


It was 3:50 in the afternoon in a small city in eastern North Carolina. The weather was a warm 90 degrees, give or take a few, and a calm breeze blew in the open windows of my car. I pulled into the driveway of the local Department of Motor Vehicles office—I had an appointment at four o'clock to have my license renewed. I noticed a few people going up the sidewalk to the entrance. I dreaded the long wait inside, nervous and anxious about having to take the sign and vision test required for another eight-year license. The agony of it all.

There were three people on the sidewalk, but only one caught my eye. From behind, it was a light skinned blond with shoulder-length hair with curls. She was wearing a white over-shirt and a pair of stonewashed blue jeans with black shoes, clogs maybe. She was obviously young, approximately five feet, five inches. I guessed she would weigh about a hundred pounds. She carried a pocket book, nothing too fancy, but tasteful nonetheless. She had style.

I turned my head—more pressing matters awaited me. I gathered my papers and got out of the car, locking the door as always. I went up the steps and approached the entry door. I opened it to find only one person remaining in the waiting room - her.

There were five rows of cheap grayish-white chairs, like the ones found in public schools with the slotted back and metal legs. She was sitting on the outside chair in the second row from the sign-in sheet, just outside the testing room. Across from the seating area stood a line of vending machines offering popular sugary refreshments.

She watched me as I walked through the door, a bell above the entryway ringing, my black Pierre Cardin rayon flapping in a gust of wind swooshing by as the door shut behind me. I was wearing a boot cut pair of jeans with black Timberlands I bought several years ago. Boots I only wore when I expected to be going somewhere special, boots reserved to build my confidence through a false sense of importance derived from brand labels—and the addition of half an inch to my height. Had one not known better they may think I came from some upscale relaxed area of town.

I could feel her presence, her eyes following me as I entered the room, around the seating area and down the vending machine monument. I, too, glanced around the room when I first came in and realized it was just the two of us, two complete strangers seeing each other face to face for the first time—how awkward.

I looked away as I examined the rest of the room, watching my step in such a confined space. I knew she was watching and an urge to look away from her came over me. I looked away, but as I walked by the seating area to reach the sign-in sheet in the back I looked down and to the right. I had a perfect three-quarter angle view on her now. Our eyes locked in what seemed an everlasting trance.

First contact.

I signed my name with a dull pencil on the small table outside the training room. Number two on the list. I reviewed the other name on the list. "Stacie," I thought to myself. "I don't know another person with that name." The next thought was of a singer named Stacie Orrico of whom I adore. The name shook consonance in my brain.

I turned around to face the backs of at least a dozen empty chairs. I moved left against the wall avoiding any possibility of walking by Stacie again. I put one foot between the chairs, then the other and worked my way up to the same row in which she sat and took a seat. I looked over to my right, four chairs down she sat in quiet repose. She gave a friendly look, the kind you give a stranger, and smiled. Then I did something that would rock the historical foundations of social interaction where I am concerned. I spoke.
“Hi.”
I put up a sincere smile and she returned the greeting. That was far too easy. Never in my life had I spoken up so coolly, so calmly, so...naturally. She had the face of an angel, the eyes of a newborn babe. She was every bit as beautiful as the Alps in spring - refreshing and vibrant. She got up and went to the training room door. I was lost in thought, figuring she was already gone as quickly as she had entered my life. I moved down two chairs, sitting now in the third chair in the row hoping to hear my name called soon. Much to my surprise, Stacie came back and sat in the first chair of the row.
“Oh, man. This is weird now. What if she thinks I'm a creep trying to get closer to her. I didn't know she was coming to sit down again. What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?!”
It was like a scene from a movie where the boy scoots closer to the girl when she isn't paying attention, just before he puts his arm around her chair, except I unconsciously left adequate space between our two seats. Completely unplanned, but exceptionally well done.

Sitting now just a foot and a half away, she started reading the signs on the leftmost wall, various descriptions of fees and policies.
“So how much does a license here in North Carolina cost? Do you know?”

“Well, I'm actually here to renew mine, but the letter in the mail said it was about $32 dollars.”
I turned in my chair to face her without breaking my neck. I paid attention to her captivating eyes, unable to remove my stare. She paid me back and we continued for what seemed forever. I was surprised at how well my social skills were playing out.
“What? Wow! I think it was only like $10 when I got mine the first time.”
"Yeah, I know. Everything is high nowadays. How about the weather? It feels sort of nice outside," referring to the warm sunshine and the mercury rising higher every day it seemed.
“Yeah, it does. Well, I'm just moving here from Florida and I had to get some paperwork done at the Social Security office because I'm having my name changed back. See, I'm divorced and I'm starting a new job here on top of all that.”

“Oh, wow. You really do have a lot going on. What kind of work do you do?”
So our conversation went on for a while and we talked. Oddly enough, we never officially introduced ourselves though we did happen to discuss the fact our surnames are both "W"s and show up at the end of the list. In any other occasion I go out of my way to introduce both parties as formally as possible, but for some reason this was unthought of...unwarranted perhaps? Unnecessary. How stupid of me.

I didn't even think to ask her phone number. I wondered later that evening, "I'll probably never see her again in my whole life." Little did I know a window of opportunity had been opened.

Stay tuned later for the exciting conclusion, or perhaps the sequel, to this classic tale of truthful emotion!

8/09/2009

Blackberry Background Info


Last May I opened an account with US Cellular, a wireless carrier known for impeccable customer service. Their contract plans include free incoming calls, texts, pics, and more. For most people, that's nearly half their total usage. Sounds too good to be true? It isn't.

I probably use less than 400 minutes a month so I went on their cheapest plan ($40). I also don't travel much so I opted for local area coverage for my region which gives me 700 minutes compared to national 450 plan. The other month I used less than a hundred of my minutes because all incoming calls were free. Amazing, even though I don't talk much on the phone anyway.

Originally I bought the LG Banter UX-265 (i.e. Rumor 2). It's great and the lovely spacious keyboard made it easy to type just about anything. This phone was great, but has since been taken off the US Cellular roster due to customer complaints. Apparently the phone reboots or shuts down on its own randomly. The phone can be sent back to LG to be repaired for free. I experienced this issue at most five or six times over two or three months, but didn't think much of it. It was annoying when it happened, but it worked flawless for over a month and I forgot all about it until I upgraded to the basic mobile Internet plan and browser. In that same weekend, I experienced the crash bug two or three times, but has since worked fine.

I recently deactivated the phone and bought a Blackberry Curve 8330 over eBay after an exhausting search to ensure the phone was clear and ready for use, plus inexpensive. I'm quite happy and am learning how much can be done on the phone...and with high speed web, I'm really happy. Now I can view YouTube videos at home or on the go.

I'm selling the LG Banter to a friend at work for cheap ($50 for everything except wall charger and MicroSD card, but with a car charger and data cable). I could probably sell it on eBay for $100, but at least if the phone breaks the person didn't pay much for it. If it works as well for her as it did for me she'll have gotten it at a great deal.

I'll update again in the future with some great features and advice for other new Blackberry users. What would you like to hear about next update?

7/23/2009

Patiently waiting?

I sometimes get the chance to have a one-on-one talk with a high member of management at the plant. I was recently reminded of a conversation with a top-notch manager concerning career goals.

"When I was a private, obviously I had to grow and learn, but eventually I came to realize my sergeant was making mistakes," he told me. "And I said to myself, 'Well, I can make those same mistakes,' and I went after it and I became sergeant."

"Again, I realized my superiors were still making mistakes so I said to myself, 'I can make those same mistakes, too.' and so I went for it, and got promoted again." His point was that I was being reluctant in pursuing higher goals because I felt inexperienced. He told me I would be ready one day and to seize the opportunity.

"Well, I don't want to be ruthless, to stab someone in the back to get where I want. I want it because I earned it," I explained. "Yeah, but you can't sit around waiting for it. Look at your boss, she's been here how long and just got to the top? You can do that, just go for it. You don't have to be ruthless, don't stab anyone in the back I'm not saying that, but you have to go for it if you want it. Just do it!"

...and yet as much as I agree wholeheartedly, this is one case in which I feel I must bide my time. It isn't worth destroying a quasi-friendly work environment with this person. When I gain the position it must be known to all that I earned it. I have a lot to learn concerning management and workplace leadership...things I intend to start learning before making the leap. So for now, I'm patiently waiting--reading, learning, perfecting my craft so I can train my future crew to be the best.

7/04/2009

Everyone has two sides. Or do they?


"Everyone has two sides," she enlightened me with her wisdom. Her beautiful blue eyes wide open and focused intently. Dozens of icy stalactites radiated outward from her pupils, piercing me to the core and engraving those words into my brain.

Two parts influence and one part axiom, I agreed. Weeks later those words etched with a blue flame began to weigh on my mind. Do people really have two sides? Do we always put on a face to match our various activities (work, home, social)?

She was referring to two members of management for our client who had previously engaged in epic warfare in the conference room. Two major superpowers, one above the other in chain of command, having an all out discussion concerning an issue of repeated controversy which directly affects our operation. This will be winner take all in the end. This time the higher-up won the battle, but the war is far from over. They strive for the same cause, but in different ways.

“Everyone has two sides.”

My counter-point is that we only have one side -- the one which shows who we really are. Maybe most people are never stressed to their boiling point, the point in which one shows what they're really made of. Maybe we are sometimes bitter or cruel, but some people refuse to show that face to others on a daily basis. Maybe it's an act of courtesy, to not take it out on those around us who have not wronged us. Maybe it really is a two-faced society. So if we have two faces...

“Is this the real me? A better question would be ‘Is this the real you?’ Or are we shallow to the core?”

5/14/2009

Exhibiting Ourselves - No, I'm Not Naked


So many things in our lives are left subject to interpretation. How we perceive one another, how our family perceives us, and how our co-workers perceive us are all good examples of our multi-faceted existence. Though we inhibit one being, we constantly exhibit ourselves to others. First impressions are extremely important, but not forsaking who we are as individuals is far more important in my book.

I remember this as I picture a young couple in a retail discount store last weekend. There was a guy and a girl in the greeting cards section as I was picking out a Mother's Day card. The girl was wearing dark clothes, jeans, and a studded, metal belt with matching bracelets. She wore her jeans, and belt, literally on the thighs just above where I imagined her knees were. I had to look twice, despite the hair and makeup, to determine that it was indeed a female.

Of course, she probably has a great personality. Maybe even plays online games like the rest of us. After all, she was in the greeting cards section. Still, that's no excuse for poor style, or am I wrong? -@